It’s 2am and for some unknown reason, I am wide awake. Toss and turn for 30 mins then decide to get up and fold some laundry. Big mistake! Folding laundry led to putting some of the summer clothes away in a bin. That then led to trying on some of the clothes already in the bin.. Of course I didn’t like how any of them fit and I started crying and yelling at the bin. After this extreme meltdown which are happening more frequent lately, I decided to take scissors and cut up all the clothes! They can’t hurt me if I can’t try them on right! Drastic measure in my sleepy and upset state. Why did I feel the need to try the clothes on so late at night?? Why did I think that would be a good idea?? Thinking back now, I feel bad that I wasted all those clothes.. Someone could have used them! Why is my mind in a constant battle with itself?? What I wouldn’t give to be out of my head for a little while…………..