Life has a way of getting in the way of things. Such is the case with my blog! It has been quite some time since my last post, and I’m promising myself to continue blogging. Self accountability is a must in order to help myself. I met a great therapist who amazingly has been more eye opening and understanding than any of the psychologists I’ve seen during my lengthy struggles with BDD. Was it her approach, her willingness to understand me, her assignments after each session, who knows! What I do know is she helped me navigate my daily struggles. Yes, navigate not fix! Will I ever truly be “fixed”? I worked so hard on myself, coping, navigating, and learning the signs that trigger me and cause me to deviate from my path. Then, like it always does the feelings of inadequacy and self hatred slowly found their way back for more destruction. The feelings pouring over me like a rain storm making it impossible to avoid the drops. Each raindrop telling me I’m not important, I’m unlovable, I’m ugly, I’m fat, I’m unwanted, the list goes on and on. I’m saddened to be in this storm again with no shelter in sight.